The child, awake until a few minutes ago, has now fallen asleep in his mother’s arms. I watch his tiny hands, and the face half hidden by the shawl: a forelock of dark hair and almond shaped eyes so similar to his father’s, even though they will probably become the same deep blue colour of the mother’s. She is now looking at me, rocking the baby, and, although she is taller than I am, her glance comes somehow demure as if cast from below. She smiles.
I smile back. Jelinda Gwynned, priestess of The Shield of Light, is here in Theramore Isle today, as my next guest for the T.A.P. series of interviews.
She came to the meeting escorted by a former member of her order, sir Hellgar Cadohan. He peers around, imposing in his golden plate armour. The fortress on this little peninsula is not a crowded place: few people, mostly guards, with uniform’s colours curiously similar to the ones of the Shield itself.
The air is fresh but not chilly and the place conveys a feeling of quiet and secluded safety. “In this inn the baby was born – Ms Gwynned explains to me – I travelled to Theramore to hide. There was this lady that wanted to kill me and my unborn baby. Thomas brought me here and here I stayed for about six weeks to give birth to our child. It was all very secret and I didn't meet anyone but Thomas those days.” Thomas is, in case some of my readers don’t know, Sir Thomas Kerengar, the leader and founder of the Shield of Light, recently deceased.
A story, the one about this child, which stirred perplexity and many gossips in Stormwind, when it was clear that Ms Gwynned was expecting, and the father was – by his own admission – the Lord Protector himself.
Candidly, and let me add, rather unnecessarily, Ms Gwynned has pointed out that ‘she will not talk about how the baby was conceived, since everybody knows how babies are born’ – and of course I reassured her about my publication being quality press and not some sordid sort of tabloid or scandal column.
After Sir Cadohan carries away baby Thomas (named after his father) to the nurse, Ms Gwynned and I head towards the bastions, up to a small terrace flanked by square merlons.
It is early afternoon and a late autumnal sun shines over the landscape, which stretches out before me like a painting – the white-rimmed waves in the bay nearly still in the distance, a few boats, the pastel-colored sand and the surrounding marshes.
I look at my guest while she sits down straightening her white dress. She is part of the painting as well, blonde hair like a swaying halo, framing a face which still retains hints of childish stubbornness and wide-eyed fragility.
“I used to come up here to watch the boats go by. But the swamps look a bit scary.” Jelinda smiles nervously and fingers a lock of her hair that reaches down over her shoulders.
The impression of innocence may be real or just conjured by her soft and regular traits or her recurrent biting on her lips, but in any case the illusion - if illusion is - is perfect.
I start with my questions.
T.A.P.: “Thank you for coming today, Ms Gwynned! First off, tell us something about where you are from, and your family… basically, your origins.”
Jelinda: “I was born in a cottage outside Lakeshire. We grew up ducks. A duck farm. My brother Jerome still works with the farm after my father was killed while in the army. Some orcs killed him in Stromgarde Keep. I went to try and help him, he was still alive when I got there, but I couldn't save him.”
Jelinda looks gloomily at the ocean for a moment, brushing away some hair from her face. I nod – words about this fact had already reached me – and write down. She snaps out of the sad look turning to me and smiling slightly. “Anyway, I had a very happy upbringing really, at the farm everyone was happy and all.”
T.A.P.: “It sounds like a peaceful but somehow unchallenging environment. How did you decide to become a healer? I mean… not a country veterinary – although we know that you love small animals, especially kittens - but a real healer for people, a priestess. And quite a good one, as fame goes.”
Jelinda’s reply comes in a lively, quite assertive tone: “Oh, yeah. Well, I started out to heal animals. Mainly ducks. We have a lot of ducks and they tend to bite each other and all. Silly ducks. And I have always been interested in herbs and making potions…”
My expression must betray some perplexity at this stream of consciousness, because Ms Gwynned adds promptly: “Yes, ducks behaviour may be puzzling, but they are the smartest animals ever, really. Oh, right... that priest, Holden, taught me about the light. My family have always lived with the Light's philosophy in our hearts, so he taught me the deeper knowledge.”
T.A.P.: “Can you tell us about your healing training, and how you formally became a priestess in the selective ranks of the Shield of Light?”
Jelinda: “Well, I went to the city. I wanted to see it and think about my life some and all. And while I was there I met two paladins: Thomas Kerengar and Kaleseth Lionheart. I spent some time with them, they helped me out and then one day Kaleseth came and brought me to a meeting. And so I was brought into the order. I... got a crush on Kaleseth... I can admit that now.” Jelinda blushes a bit.
“Well. You soon switched the target of your affection though, apparently” I object.
“Uuh… yes. I got a crush on Thomas instead... It was all very... Well, I got a bit dizzy of all the new things.”
“Sure, a bit confused… so many different targets and goals! Professionally speaking, I mean. But you got quite a name there, as a healer.”
“I was healing people; I had learnt how to use herbs already and knew much about the Light, so it wasn't too hard to go over to heal people. I learnt very much quickly. And I learned how to read too... Now I love to read.” I nod slowly, and jot down my guest’s words.
T.A.P.: “After the tragic death of Thomas Kerengar and a brief take-over by sir Cadohan, I was told that a new structure has been given to the Order, with a new leadership, directly ‘sponsored’ by the Archbishop and his clergymen. Is it correct to state that now the Shield of Light is ruled by an enclave of priestesses? Who is the leader? You, maybe?”
Jelinda shifts a bit: “We haven't cleared the whole leadership out yet. I was asked to become such… But I'm no leader. I will never be a leader.”
Jelinda looks at me and takes a deep breath. My professional gut feeling suggests that some major disclosure is coming. Jelinda continues with a hesitant tone: “Kalistra.... I'm not sure the Shield of Light will continue to exist for much longer.”
I nearly drop my quill in disbelief: “What?!”
“I'm not sure of course, but the Church isn't too happy about how things have evolved after Thomas’ death. They are talking about disbanding the order. And I'm not sure it's the right place for me to stay either. I think we all got a big... hit in the face when Thomas died and I don’t know if we have the strength to get things together.”
Jelinda bites her lip again, and fingers her sleeves. This was a worrying scoop indeed, but I prefer to leave the topic aside, since it would drag us into endless digressions.
T.A.P.: “Regarding Lord Kerengar’s death, did you find out who are the responsible? Apparently his ashes were brought back by some Scarlet crusaders, who blamed the Undead for the killing… Did you find his last will, by the way?”
Jelinda: “As far as I know it was a group of undead that killed him. There was a lot of tension towards the Scarlets because they cremated his body and brought it to the capital. But it seems that they only respected his last wishes. He had told his brother that he wanted to be cremated. I don't know if he left an actual will, we haven't found any yet, I think.”
T.A.P.: “Do you know personally the Archbishop Benedictus? What sort of man he is, under his apparent bonhomie? Is it true that he is a ‘bon vivant’ and once per month he leaves Stormwind on a gourmand trip around the lands?”
Jelinda: “Hmmm.. uhm... Well, he has a thing for mushrooms. I bring him mushrooms from Lakeshire when I'm there to visit my brother. He really likes them, with butter and cinnamon.”
T.A.P.: “Also I heard that during a formal visit to the Cathedral, king Magni Bronzebeard took a look at the archbishop’s pastoral ring (a star ruby called The Eye of Sargeras) and grumbled to his retinue that ‘he suddenly felt like a poor man’. Have you ever seen such relic yourself?”
Jelinda gives me a perplexed glance: “Only from a distance.”
T.A.P.: “It’s a fact that the Cathedral’s treasure has been recently pillaged by an unknown band of sacrilegious thieves. As far as you know, are there developments on the enquiries about this callous crime?”
Jelinda: “Well, I handed a list of the things that were stolen. Some of them were returned after I wrote a public letter to Stormwind. We also got a check for 300 gold pieces, donated to the church. I think the robbers feel guilty. They should.
I heard a rumour that Duckular was involved, but he is such a nice person, I can't believe that.” Jelinda shakes her head and starts fiddling with her hair again.
“Yes, that’s utterly unbelievable.” I agree.
T.A.P.: “It appears that recently you cured Freckles Snapwiggle, fallen into a comatose status after a trip to some exotic island. Without breaking the professional secret too much, can you explain what procedure you followed?”
Jelinda: “Oh, well... I peeked into her first, to see what was wrong. That is... I placed my hands on her and felt her soul with mine. I felt something dark in there, so I started poking it some. And finally, with the help of her sister Speckles and Duckular, I managed to get rid of the darkness. With love. They sent me their love for Freckles and that gave me strength to exchange the darkness with light.
“So for you Love is the light? And darkness just Hate?”
“Well, I see love as the strongest feeling we have. It can move mountains if it's true and clear. Darkness doesn't have to be hate; it can be a feeling of being lost, or not being good enough. We need to be true to ourselves and see the feelings we have for what they are, and deal with them.”
I notice that a sort of excited eloquence has suddenly sprouted on Ms Gwynned’s lips.
T.A.P.: “These are the principles of the Light philosophy, aren’t they? Explain about these virtues, I am always ready for some doctrine...”
This is partly true, due to my chronicler’s curiosity and duty. Yet, preparing myself to the catechism lesson incoming, I cannot but think of my aunt Margot, who used to go court balls with shoes one size smaller than her feet, to test her capacity to smile and dance notwithstanding the discomfort. “Sometimes we need to train our own patience, my dear” she would say. A great Lady, my aunt, mistress of self control and social graces. But I realize that my thoughts are drifting away, and I set the attention back to my guest.
“…and there are three virtues,” she is saying “respect, tenacity and compassion. We are all part of the same world and somehow work together… respect teaches us to see everyone around us with honest and respectful eyes. Tenacity teaches us to not give up, and compassion… I could never heal without it. Healing is about feeling, reaching out and understanding what is wrong. If I don't know what's wrong I can't help. I've written a paper on healing; I can send it to you if you want.” I smile and go on with my next question.
T.A.P.: “Apparently a good part of your successful healing practice consists in establishing a psychic link between you and the person needing help. I can testify it myself, from that occasion when you tried to heal me after a robbery attack. But maybe the most impressive display of your mental powers is what you did with Nath Shadoweyes. After his capture, you managed to enter the criminal’s mind and find some hints about his plans… can you tell us about this?”
Jelinda looks down a bit, apparently scared at the thought: “Oh… mhm... It was really very very creepy. All cold and... green inside. Mmm, I saw things in his mind. It didn't help much though, but we managed to find the vials hidden in the garden. I saw the garden in there. But maybe we would have found them anyway... Well, I tried, but I had to stop when he attacked me… and the baby.”
T.A.P.: “As a follower of the Light, and on a personal basis, how do you consider those magic users that, in the ranks of the Alliance, practice… well, what is sometimes called ‘dark magic’? In a word, the warlocks?”
I peer at my guest, and she returns back the gaze, biting her lip.
Jelinda: “I think it's scary and cold.” She looks down, as if she didn’t have anything to add, but I ask her to elaborate. “It's dangerous. And I don't think demons should be... used... like… that. Uhm.” She fidgets unconfortably.
T.A.P.: “Of course, the age-old debate about ‘control’… but, look, entering other people’s mind… don’t you think, Ms Gwynned, that it could be considered ‘creepy and scary’ as well? Psychic manipulation can be considered a form of mind control after all, or am I wrong?” Jelinda raises her head, back to her determined self: “If I do it without their agreement, yes.”
T.A.P.: “But do you always state that beforehand with your patients? You didn’t in my case, for example. Beside, the injured person can often be too weak or distressed to consider any ‘I consent to be mind scanned’ agreement...”
Some silence follows. Eventually Ms Gwynned produces her reply, and I think I can hear a note of irritation in her tone – although I may be wrong: “Well, it's not always about me entering the person. That's only if it's complicated. Creating a link can be about letting energy flow to the other person. I do it with a will of healing, helping. I could not do it if I were to harm the person, while that is dark teachings, Shadow magic.”
T.A.P.: “Sure, but if you bring this to a matter of intentions, ‘good will’, even the warlocks' intentions could be well meant then, uh?”
Jelinda: “Uhm…” Another pause. “I don't think working with demons can ever be a good thing.”
I release my clasp on the quill, and smile a little, turning page.
“All right... let us pass to something more practical... “
“Uh-uh”
“… and very interesting too. A bit private, and still connected to all this academic discussion about free will and such: the Kerengar's affair. But it requires some forewords…”
I start the most complicated and probably the most expected of all my questions. “It was a sort of renowned fact that you and Sir Kerengar shared a peculiar psychic link, established after a healing spell you had performed on him in order to save his life. Like… sharing part of each other’s soul, isn’t it?”
Jelinda nods slowly, peering at me.
“When it was brought to the public attention that you had conceived sir Kerengar’s son, there were rumours about you having taken advantage of that psychic link in order to … set the conceiving procedure into motion, so to speak. After all, in a recent open letter to your order, you admitted that you had been in love with him for a long time. There were people suggesting that you had planned all this in order to become Lady Kerengar…” Jelinda frowns and is about to reply, but I ask her to let me finish. In the back of my mind I wonder if the spirit of the Lord Protector is listening to us, from wherever he is now. A naïve idea, but I nearly look around, imagining Thomas’ incorporeal presence like a still, silent ghost beside us.
T.A.P.: “Well Ms Gwynned, honestly, one would be tempted to apply common sense and see no need for metaphysical tricks to explain natural events between a man and a woman who like each other. So I would have put aside all these rumours as ‘malevolent gossips’ if … well, I hadn’t heard the same reservations expressed from a person quite involved in the story, the other half of the couple, Sir Kerengar, that is. Would you care to explain and get rid of those allegations once for all?”
Jelinda looks straight at me: “We were both influenced by our link, Kalistra. None of us controlled the other. We felt each other’s feelings at times. One time I was almost killed, Thomas then felt that I was in pain and found me, for example. And I had some fuzzy feelings for him before the healing, and after it we both had warm feelings for each others in some way.
Yes, we were influenced, but not because someone wanted it. Sharing someone’s soul makes you positive to that person. Thomas wasn’t the victim of a spell. I healed him, and we got some part of each other. Without it he would be dead.”
Which, sadly, is the case right now, but I don’t feel like interrupting my guest with such an obvious statement.
“I reached out and gave my life to him, he took it because he would die if not. But when I reached back to myself I didn't get everything back. Our souls were mixed.”
T.A.P.: “But did you become Lady Kerengar at last? I have heard rumours of a secret ceremony in Lakeshire…”
Jelinda shakes her head assertively: “I never intended to be Lady Kerengar. And I never intended to become pregnant. No marriage, no. I don't know where people got that rumour from. I had strong feelings for Thomas, but I got over him. After giving birth to the child and staying here, I told him that too.” Jelinda fingers with a lock of blond hair and gazes at the ocean once more.
“Away with this Kerengar’s matter. I imagine you are pretty annoyed to be targeted with the very same topic and this is not a Watch interrogation anyway! So, let’s pass to something else…”
T.A.P.: “For a certain period you seemed in quite good terms with Lord Kalius Drakemoor, the controversial leader of the Stormguard, later deposed as treacherous… what sort of person he really was? And on what grounds you two had met and become friends?”
Jelinda: “He... used magic. Controlled my feelings. It's all a bit dizzy... But he turned me against the order to start confusion amongst us. He even told me to do things, and I couldn't resist. I went to the Keep to live with him, in my own room, nothing else. He was a very polite man and had this façade on in Stormwind, but I don’t think he liked the city very much… I don’t know what his real plans were though.”
T.A.P.: “It seems that you were close also with another mysterious individual, the insurgent type I would say, named Shaevar or such. I remember you two in trade district one night, and you laughing and saying aloud to this man: ‘I taught my kitten how to smell Kerengar, maybe I could teach it to smell you too!’ I guess it was a friendship based on common interest in veterinary science?”
Jelinda: “Oh... Uh... Erm… It's like... I have a good hand with animals, and I taught my cat how to sniff out Kerengar. Like a hunting dog. Me and Thomas used to laugh about that. And well, to sniff out more people, that could come in handy. Shaevar always sneaks around.”
T.A.P.: “I hear that there might be a ball coming during the Winter Veil festivities. Will you attend that? And in case, with who, if I may ask?”
Jelinda starts: “Uh…” Yet, before she can say more, another person appears from the shadows under the walls. A man in leather armour, with blond hair and an athletic build. Jelinda glances towards him and blushes. “Uh... oh... hello...”
“Am I interrupting?” the newcomer asks “And pardon my battle gear...” He brushes some dust off his shoulderpads. Introductions follow and I learn his name, Néstor Feenix.
I smile: “Is this... the answer to my last question, Ms Gwynned?”
Jelinda raises her head: “I kind of sent him a letter, asking him to escort me here, but he seems to be late.” She replies with a smirk and an even deeper blush. He smiles at her in an apologetic way.
I have to refill my ink bottles, and move away from them for a little while. Seagulls are circling in the sky, their incessant cries somehow reminding me that hours have passed, and it is nearly time to return to the capital.
When I am back, my guest and her friend are sitting together, still talking. Jelinda looks at me a bit nervously and Néstor puts his hands on hers. I approach them, and, making an exception to the usual policy of my interviews – no third party present – I ask my last question:
T.A.P.: “Ms Gwynned, when you look at your son, I am sure you wish him the brightest future in a better world. What is your greatest wish for him?”
Jelinda replies assertively: “The most important thing would be that he is loved. I would want him to know who his father was. I am sure that he will grow up as a strong and beautiful man, and I will always protect him and let him feel loved.”
Néstor intervenes: “I don’t think your son should be pressured to be as his father was...”
Jelinda shakes her head: “Uh… Oh, no no… maybe he wants to become a duck farmer…”
Néstor and I laugh at these words, while the priestess looks at us, slightly confused.
But time for me to take my leave.
“Thank you Ms Gwynned, this interview has been very interesting and quite relevant to me. Have a good day, both of you!”
I glance back, but just once, at the couple sitting on the wall. I can see and feel that the past is over - everywhere but in our memory - and that silent ghost, if it ever was there, has like faded away in the sweet afternoon haze.
It is a refreshing feeling, I think, while I go down the stone steps, on my way to the docks.
L.K.D.